Fear of Fear

What fears have you overcome and how?

Recently I wrote about one of my little adventures and how I had to drive thru tunnels. I hate tunnels! But it’s not like you can drive around the Rocky Mountains on a day trip. You have to go thru the tunnel.

Claustrophobia is something I have struggled with my whole life. I can’t even stand to have the closet door shut in my room. My very first cruise, I didn’t know that there were rooms without windows. (I bought the cheap tickets) There was a curtain, I push it aside to see the water and it was the worst thing I could have done. It was quick clothing changes for me and Xanax before bed.

I know this is an irrational fear, and I have gotten better, mainly because I had to. There was no way around it. When you are a single parent, you cannot show an ounce of fear because those heathen pre-teens will use it against you!

I guess that is how I work thru the fear, there is no other option. Just go thru it. When your doctor says you need an MRI, ask for something to help you to stay on the skinny little board and not scoot yourself to the end and jump off the skinny little board when the MRI has you up about 4 feet off the ground. (True story, not enough Ativan)

I didn’t want my kids to see my irrational fear and I don’t my grandbaby so either. I try to keep them to myself…sometimes.

My other fears, like loud noises, like popping balloons, some fireworks and canned biscuits. Canned biscuits (cinnamon rolls too) are just evil and because I can’t make biscuits to save my soul, they are a necessity. But I have a trick for the canned biscuits, crescent rolls, cinnamon rolls, or pizza dough. I scream really loud when I’m opening them, that way I don’t hear the “pop”. The screaming also works for tunnels. But I haven’t found anything for balloons yet.

That’s all I got, folks. I’m still working on it. Maybe, I will become fearless before I die.

Oh that’s something I have no fear about at all – death. That’s nothing but a piece of cake!

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About Me

My name is Susan and I turned 59 this week. I was not thrilled about this age or the one that would be coming up next. One celebratory post on social media that included a link, inspired me to try 60 new things or experiences before I turn 60 in 2025. Join me on this journey as I view these adventures through a dirty windshield.

Susan is a mom of 2, grandmother of 1 and owned by 1 dog. Currently living in the Denver, Colorado metro area.

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